Got up early, found something's missing
My only name.
No one else sees but I got stuck,
And soon forever came.
Stopped pushing on for just a second, then nothing's changed.
Who am I this time, where's my name?
I guess it crept away.
No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictable won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
What's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
Just let it go, what now can never be.
I forgot that I might see,
So many beautful things.
I forgot that I might need,
To find out what life could bring.
Take this happy ending away, it's all the same.
God won't waste this simplicity on possibility.
Get me up, wake me up, dreams are filling
This trace of blame.
Frozen still I thought I could stop,
Now who's gonna wait.
No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictable won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
What's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
Just let it go, what now can never be.
Now what do I do?
Can I change my mind?
Did I think things through?
It was once my life
It was my life at one time.
30 Mart 2009 Pazartesi
Beautiful Things, Andain & Tiesto.
Just Another Day...
Yeah, just another day passed.. As usual, Mom and I went to our Pilates Class..
Came home, took a shower ...
Life's getting boring day by day, don't you think so ??
We need some changes in our lives. I don't know how to do it but I can honestly say that I'm trying to.
Whatever ..
Nowadays, I'm listening to an amazing rock group, Flyleaf.
Its' vocalist is a woman named Lacey Mosley and her voice is just indescribable.
Here's her picture ( I think it's photoshopped, idk. )
Isn't she looking stunning?? Yup. My fave song is "All Around Me"
The lyrics, the tune is addictive. Video's amazing.
Everything is fascinating about this Group. I think you should listen.
And and and there's Fireflight. Its' vocalist is matchless. I don't know her name - what a shame - but again, addicted to her voice. Especially love the song "Unbreakable". The lyrics are really powerful and it makes you feel like you are the one. And I must say that her hair is fantastic :))
That's her:
Baaaaa! And Rammstein. The Super-Cool Grandpas :))
They are like 40 -45 but they are awesome !! I collect their posters, CDs, DVDs, stickers, stamps, everything about them !
Ho ho ho ! I'm in love with the "Doom" : Christoph Schneider. Black hair, white skin, blue eyes, What a great Combo! Gorgeous, right?? He is my drummer, he is the best. And he is 43 :))
He is at the same age with my Mom, Oh My Gosh ! - Ironic -
Right now, listening to Flyleaf, Fully Alive.
"Telling Leyla's story spoken, about how all her bones are broken.."
"Fully alive, more than most, ready to Smile ; and love life .."
All 4 Now.
See ya, take Care !
Family, Friends and "Moi"
Me! I was bored and waiting for the assistant to bring me the dress ..
Cousin & I , pretty old pic.
Best Friend Mine & I
Me, Cousin and Aunt.
29 Mart 2009 Pazar
Whoa, Slow Down Girl !
I was visiting suites on Stardoll, and I saw a presentation of an "Elite".
She says that her father's very rich and he has got a penthouse. Renting it to the celebs, blah blah blah .. She thinks she is an Heiress! When I read it I was like "What the heck is she talking about??". Whoa! Slow down girl, don't be so fast! And I don't believe that she is that kind of person. Who writes stuff like that to her Stardoll Presentation?
No one, duh ??
She is fake, I think but;
Actually, I respect her. I mean, every girl can dream, right?
Naaahhh .....
Hopeless .....
Please , girl.
Be yourself...
Tired !
I just came home from my Pilates Class with my Mom, Sebo :) Her name's Sebnem actually but Dad and I call her Sebo. Whatever.
The point is, my pilates teacher is so damn Hot !
He is 22 with a perfect pale skin, green eyes and brown hair.
Oh my God, I need to have a BoyFriend !!
...
After my pilates class, mom and I went to Grocery to buy some veggies and fruits. When we came home I did a Fruity-Juice with banana, kiwi and strawberry !! It was tasty and fresh. Then I had a bubble-bath, which was amazing and relaxing.
And now I'm writing this !!!
I'm listening to Mozart's Requiem, Lacrymosa.
It makes me feel good when I'm tired, you know. I don't like listening to rock or trance when I feel exhausted.
Well I can't stop myself saying that the film I'm watching right now, Confessions of a Sociopathic Social Climber is a bullshit inside out! I haven't seen a film like this, it is disgusting, totally rubbish !
After this fiasco, I think I'm going to cheer myself up with "Friends" and my guitar, the Purple Linda! I can obviously say that I'm addicted to "Friends". I think Chandler, Joey and Ross are the best characters of all TV Series. I mean you know, the things that they do to protect their friendship is just so amazing. My BestFriends and I find ourselves in those characters.
Well, that's all for now.
Gonna have a cup of coffee ..
15 Mart 2009 Pazar
Hiya!
My Exams are killing me !
I've been very busy because of my school and here are my Exams..
This month's gonna be full of stress for me because I'm not a bad student so people, especially family, expecting a lot from me.
Week I.
On Wednesday, have Biology.
On Friday, have Physics.
Week II.
On Monday, have Maths.
On Tuesday, have Philosoph & Geometry.
On Wednesday, have Turkish Literature
Thursday's Free! (Yay!)
On (every) Friday, have a general test.
Week III.
On Monday, have History.
On Tuesday, have Use of Turkish & Composition.
On Wednesday, have Chemistry.
On Thursday, have English.
On Friday, have German.
Week IV - Labs.
On Monday, have Practical Biology.
On Tuesday, have Practical Chemistry.
On Friday, have Practical Physics.
* We do our Practical exams at our Labs.
For Example;
In Practical Biology, we cut frogs, brains and we explain the subject to the teacher. It's more like an oral examination but at the end you have to do a presentation. It's harder that the "normal" exams.
As you see, exams SUCKS ..
Emmy Style.
*I own the purple ones in real life..
Lily Donaldson Dress + Frye Carmen Boots
CC Skye Bracelets = Fashionista !
Metro Station Tee + Hot Topic Pants
Dr.Martens Boots + Forever21 MetalBangle = RockStar!
Forever21 Top + Skinny Jeans + Uggs = Chick!
Zuhair Murad Couture "Le Bal De Sirenes" Dress
Louboutin Heels = Red Carpet Diva !
And ..
La Senza Pacific Rim
La Senza Lola & Coco Peace Doodle Roll-Up Pant
La Senza Eyelet Babydoll Cami
La Senza Lola & Coco Symbolic Racerback Tank
That's How I Spent Yesterday.
Yesterday, mom and I went to shopping to check what's new this Season. We went to Istinye Park and we found Gorgeous stuff !! We fell in Love with Louis Vuitton handbags, mom bought "Alma" for herself and I was sooo Jealous of her. Then I saw an Awesome dress in "Naked". It was Juicy Couture I guess because I think I've seen that Dress on JC's official website.
Then I went to Harvey Nichols, Kanyon. I met my bestfriends Mine and Beren. We celebrated my Birthday by having Lunch at "Num Num". Mine bought me a Yellow Hollister T-Shirt and Beren bought me a Grey Mini-Shorts from Zara. Actually they matched perfectly. And mom.. My Rockin' Mom bought me a Gorgeous hangbag from Mango and my dad gave me money to buy myself Tory Burch Boots !!! Honestly that's why I went to Kanyon because Harvey Nichols is the only place which sells Tory Burch etc..
After that fascinating day, I went back to my Home.
Do you know for what??
For GODDAMN HOMEWORKS !!
That's how I live ..
Totally in Love ..
Need your Help, I think I'm in Love !
He is so Hot with a Ten Million Dollars Smile !
His smile shines on my World.
OMG what can I do??
He is older than me, and our love is like impossible but I really wanna go out with that guy. He is Unattainable !
That's what makes him attractive.
I don't even know if he likes me, or knows my name !!
What should I do ??
